|Hiding behinds wall, to protect yourself from rejection, hurt and sadness...|
Hey guys it’s
this journal because I have something to talk to you guys about.
have been following my DID story probably have noticed that I’ve been working
less and less at this story. This has two causes: one I’m busy with my everyday
life and this video I’ve been working on nearly non-stop. But that sadly is not
the only cause.
The more I
think about the progress of the story, read the old chapters and make art, the
less pleased I am with this story. Frankly I just don’t feel like writing at it
anymore because I don’t really like it anymore. That’s perhaps put quite
strongly, but yeah… DID never was meant to be a story consisting of so many
chapters. I started it with a horror one shot and just kept on writing more and
more chapters. Sadly this affects the story greatly and not in a good way.
There’s no real story line, no goal, no back bone and this has been irritating
me to no end lately... And yet this story is still my precious baby and I don’t
want to throw it aside, because I’ve worked so hard on it so far. All the art
and chapters… I could just force myself to write the few last chapters since
the end is near, but I’m afraid they will be written half heartedly. I had many
plans for the sequel of DID too: DID- Amnesia, but I don’t think I’ll ever get
to write this story.
I’m writing this is because I don’t want to let you guys in the dark and want
you to know why I haven’t been working on DID lately. I’m just stuck and don’t
know what to do. Like I said earlier I could just write the last chapters and
get it over with, but if I’m going to finish a story I want to do it well not
half heartedly. Sometimes I just wonder if I should just start the story all
over again, because I’ve come up with all kinds of new ideas and concepts. I’m
especially working on my angel concept because my old angels were far from
impressive (which angels are in my eyes), plus I would like to add a goal in my
story, a red line to follow, because let’s be honest guys, Naira has no goal in
this story and a good story has a goal, a quest you could say. And as for now,
DID is just one one-shot after the other, not a real story in my eyes. On the
other hand…this means that I have to start all over again and this will take
aaaaaages and discourages me a little too.
you’ve all read this, what do you guys think? I know you can’t make decisions
for me and that’s not what I meant to do with this journal either, but you guys
have supported me for so long so I wanted to let you know. Also special thanks
goes to my friends: Kay-chan, Tsuki and Kassie because you’ve guys been
following this story from almost the beginning and never gave up on me and ever
so patiently waited for me to upload a new chapter. Love you guys so much!
Wow ok this
journal got so long, didn’t intend to do that ^^” anwyway I’ll leave it at
that. Thanks for reading!